A little Q+A on my decision to travel to India.
It all began on NY day when my husband and I decided to write out our goals for 2018. There was a calling inside that I needed to physically get out of my comfort zone. I wanted to go away on retreat. My day job had become too comfortable, my energy felt stuck and stagnant and there was something moving in me and whispering to me that I needed to do something that would challenge me in a way that I had never experienced before.
What was I looking for?
Perhaps a women’s retreat? Or maybe yoga or an embodiment/goddess retreat? First I looked in Bali, and then Costa Rica and then I had this feeling to look at India. I saw lots of Yoga retreats and training but something was drawing me more and more to meditation.
It then clicked, it has to be a meditation retreat or course—this practice has been one that in all honesty saved me and my health in many ways, it woke me up and brought awareness to my way of life and thought processes.
Turning 30 I realized something had to change, my lifestyle although seemingly healthy was not in alignment with my constitution which brought about a whole host of health issues such as Hypothalamic Amenorrhoea (HA), adrenal fatigue, decreased bone health, increased anxiety and worry, mood swings, negative self talk and the list goes on. One thing I believe totally changed the trajectory of my state of health was, meditation. I’ve always been great at sticking to a routine and being disciplined in that way, so adding a meditation practice to my routine wasn’t too difficult or stressful. However, sitting in silence and simply ‘being’ instead of ‘doing’, was rather challenging. So, long story short, looking at deepening my practice of meditation after seeing so many courses online in India really struck a cord with me.
Why a Mediation Teacher Training Course (MTTC)?
I’ve always had a vision of sharing what I know, from playing teachers as a child to finding my passion in health and wellness coaching, I feel it’s through sharing our experiences and learnt lessons that we can empower others to move through difficulties they face in their life and health, it’s that ripple effect that has the ability to inspire and change lives. Becoming a teacher of meditation gives me the credibility to begin sharing such a practice with those who are interested and wanting to elevate their health; physically, mentally and spiritually. After I made this decision I remember finding a course and feeling with every bone in my body that it just felt right, I would look at other courses and locations and in the end I would go back to the same one. This my friend, was my gut or intuitiveness speaking to me, guiding me to chose the MTTC in Dharamsala, India.
Did the decision feel rushed and were there any doubts?
It didn’t feel rushed at all, I felt that I took my time researching courses online and I went with what felt ‘right’ for me and ticked pretty much all the boxes. When it came time to booking it and paying the deposit, that’s when some of the doubt came in but, I knew it was because I had done what I said I would do and that probably gave my ego a chance to voice it’s doubtful self, in an attempt to keep me safe and secure in my little comfy world at home.
The most beautiful part of this process was the unlimited amount of support I received from my husband. From the moment I wrote down my goals through to the time that I booked and paid for the course, he was always there, showing his love and support. In a way he was really mirroring what I was essentially doing within myself—I had made the decision to listen to myself and trust that this goal of mine was for my highest good and could and would happen if I believed in myself.
As the time drew nearer to me leaving I had more moments of doubt as to whether I had made the right decision, there were times of ‘freak-out’—mainly because this was the first time ever that I would be traveling on my own, to a country I knew little about and to a place where I knew no-one. But, deep down I believed that this challenge is what I truly needed, it’s what I had asked the universe for and she most definitely delivered.
Part 2 coming soon.